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Original: 3/10/2009 6:17 PM
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Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Let Them Pass By In Seasons

 

Ever since my husband arrived, I've been feeling increasingly distant from a majority of my friends.  I find myself on the receiving end of abandonment accusations, or claims that I've changed.  Maybe I have.  I'm a bit tired nowadays, stressed out, stretched thin...  Sometimes, I feel as if I were the one abandoned.  If a friend is stretched thin and worn bare, wouldn't you be there...?  What's changed, now that I'm married?  Why are shoulders so reluctantly given now...?

At the same time, I do feel changed.  I feel myself getting tired of having to dance and tiptoe around relationship politics.  I feel myself getting tired of justifying my actions - when there's no reason to justify anything.  I give people answers when they ask questions out of courtesy, and they easily forget that I don't owe them anything.  I'm tired of who I've become.  I don't even read anymore.

Confirms my deep- and long-rooted desire to get the hell out of Los Angeles.  This isn't my town - I may have history here, but I can't thrive in concrete.  My soul just wasn't made for that.

Ahhh, stop yer whining, woman.  Things always look better in the morning.

 

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Concrete limits ones potential. It has this coldness feel to it because, well, it is cold. How do you not read anymore?

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Posted 3/10/2009 6:42 PM by deathtothenewworldorder - reply

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You do live in a different world once you're married. Unless you have friends that are married and you all hang out. I remembered at the beginning of my marriage, the things that went on my life were so different from my single friend's lives. We just didn't click and if we talked it was very casual. There wasn't anything in common that we had. But once she married, I was able to guide her through the awkwardness. She also experienced that weirdness with her other single friends too.

But look at it this way....here is your chance to be bestfriends with your partner. Of course he'll never understand your woman venting moments (that's why I blog and have journals and go shopping) but eventually you will find that he completes you.

Posted 3/11/2009 9:59 AM by nkaujhmoobdenver - reply

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@deathtothenewworldorder - i don't literally "not" read.  i mean, i barely read for pleasure nowadays.  when i was younger, i used to carry a backpack full of books everywhere.  in fact, if i *didn't* have a backpack full of books at church, etc., people asked me if i was sick.  now, not so much.

Posted 3/11/2009 1:27 PM by venusatellite - reply

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@venusatellite - HAHA. "are you sick"? I get it. Reading was much more popular back then since we have ipods, cell phones and other annoying but fun technological creations today. Why don't you read for pleasure anymore?

Posted 3/11/2009 6:46 PM by deathtothenewworldorder - reply

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@deathtothenewworldorder - actually, "back then," reading was just as unpopular as it is now.  we didn't have ipods, but getting a kid to read was like getting him to voluntarily sit in a dentist's chair.  and i don't read for pleasure much anymore because... tired and no time.  when i was a kid, i didn't truly understand why adults looked so exhausted.  now i know.  i used to be able to read for 12 hours straight, and then draw and write for the rest of the night.  even in college, amidst all the classes and the part-time jobs, i would stay up till 3 a.m. just to read for pleasure and write.  now, with 8 to 11 hour work days in a job that allows no room for creativity, and the responsibilities of taking care of your sh--, i find that it's difficult to fall into it anymore.  when i try to write or draw, i find myself just sitting there...blank.  imagination dull.  anyway, i'm sure it's just a phase.  it'll pass soon enough.

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