| | Ever since my husband arrived, I've been feeling increasingly distant from a majority of my friends. I find myself on the receiving end of abandonment accusations, or claims that I've changed. Maybe I have. I'm a bit tired nowadays, stressed out, stretched thin... Sometimes, I feel as if I were the one abandoned. If a friend is stretched thin and worn bare, wouldn't you be there...? What's changed, now that I'm married? Why are shoulders so reluctantly given now...? At the same time, I do feel changed. I feel myself getting tired of having to dance and tiptoe around relationship politics. I feel myself getting tired of justifying my actions - when there's no reason to justify anything. I give people answers when they ask questions out of courtesy, and they easily forget that I don't owe them anything. I'm tired of who I've become. I don't even read anymore. Confirms my deep- and long-rooted desire to get the hell out of Los Angeles. This isn't my town - I may have history here, but I can't thrive in concrete. My soul just wasn't made for that. Ahhh, stop yer whining, woman. Things always look better in the morning. |
| | Posted 3/10/2009 6:17 PM - 28 Views - 4 eProps - 5 comments
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